Self harm

 Self-harm
some days I eat to the point where I´m just disgusted with myself.
I look at myself in the mirror, & hate the person I see.
I´m not obese or skinny.
I tend to lose weight & stop eating right by starving myself 
I even faint in public
I don´t love this body enough
I want a way out of this situation
is killing me inside
my heart feels like is sinking
a bit heavy
I don´t know who to talk to, or unto in the human world
God is the only one who knows 
sorry father I´m so sorry.