Recovering +letting go of tradition+healing+personal growth,+self discovery.

I can´t write, I miss writing words
I don´t read due to the lack of not finding good books to read.
my love life is indescribable, 
it´s like an agreement between two individuals. 
I´m sad, I´m confuse, I´m crying, I´m lost, I´m not a child anymore
I´m stress, I´m calm, I´m patient, I´m tired, I hate myself
I´m constantly depress, my life is not exciting.
I pray every night 
I realize that there´s peole who love me and care about me (my family) so if I let go
I won´t be hurting myself, I would be hurting them instead.
I´m here for him, them, not myself.