fear is only in your mind, taking over all the time

I'm almost done with college but for some reason I'm not happy. I'm scared, I don't think I'm ready. Fact I was never ready for this cold world. What happens after college? after you get a job? after you get married and have kids? after you grow old? is this my destiny? is this what God has in store for me?

I mean sure sometimes we ask ourselves questions that we already have the answer to it. I guess what I'm trying to say is I might not be able to predict my future but I refuse to live by the rules.

Random

I can't seem to write down everything that's in my head sometimes or put it together so it could make sense.( eff that.) If it makes sense to me than i don't really care if other people don't get it.