another fairy tail

i dont even feel like writing this. im so confused, sad, unwanted, bored,lost need to find my way. i dont want to sound like im depressed but right now my heart is sinking. i feel like is breaking into pieces i need to find each one of them....maybe! who cares i used to be happy when i didn't know about boys,men,guys,whatever the fuck you wanna call them and guess what i met the devil and now im suffering. i hate this, i hate myself for even writing this shit who i call feelings and all this things running throught my mind can i just quit living! wow im falling asleep writing this...is never going to be the same isn't it?