would probably regret or not

from an early age our parents expect so much from us. 

good grades

responsible

obedient

graduate college and junior high 

get married

have kids

carrier

etc..........

I did everything to make my father proud.

a single mother assisting her elderly father for his needs. 

I absolutely have no problem doing those things for him.

I woke up today and realized my father is conditioning me to live his life. I deserved a life of my own. 

I know most of the things he talks to me about.....

 I feel uncomfortable doing some of the tasks and running errands for my father.  (finances, office, family, decision- problem-solving) blah blah 

the only time I get for myself is training at the gym. is just me lifting weights and running on the machines.....

If I'm not physically or mentally strong as a mom, daughter, sister, or myself well I cannot show up to perform an give a 100%. I always want to make others comfortable, and happy, forget to set boundaries, and get stuck trying to communicate what's really going through my head.....

I need God´s guidance to calm me and think clearly about everything before making a decision....